"desire" is a seven-track album that touches upon the theme of love and looking into the psychology behind it. it starts off with a very happy and upbeat song to represent the feeling that one gets when they begin to fall for someone and the opposing party reciprocates the emotion, but as the album progresses it begins to slowly change in tone and dives deeper into a melancholic state. our unnamed protagonist begins to question how good they are of a partner and inadvertently ruins their relationship because of their insecurities. nevertheless they are still very hopeful and happy with how the relationship is today. sadness begins creeping in however because of an unexpected event that occurs. it almost gets to the point where our protagonist is on the abundance of a mental breakdown, but it doesn't go down like that, and our protagonist begins to think critically about the situation after the storm. after thinking with a level-headed mindset, they begin to forgive their partner despite the negative aspects, themselves, and the story ends on a note of acceptance, but sort of a cliffhanger due to the fact that the protagonist left an open door for more bad stuff to do go down between the relationship by indirectly enabling their partner. a basic unrequited love story but with more layers. happy endings are overrated and unrealistic.
this idea came into fruition after listening to heartbreak albums like fox academy's angel hair and tyler the creator's igor and the want to create something with that powerful of a message. it also stems from the fact that lately i have been questioning my own preferences in terms of romanticism. i have established that i'm bi/pan but the anxieties i have about whether or not i'm adequate to be in a relationship with anyone, the fear of being hurt again by another person once more, or the thought of me being polyamorous or aromantic or asexual are ever present. that last part isn't anything bad, but it's just something that's been eating away at my thinking space.
i originally intended to release a visual album in tandem with the musical album because it's something i always wanted to do after beyonce's lemonade and current joys' a different age did such a phenomenal job (combining film and music) and i thought adding a visual representation to the message i'm trying to convey through the album would be a great way to do so. however, i have already accomplished that with projects such as impending doom and love everyone, hence i scrapped the idea.
this idea came into fruition after listening to heartbreak albums like fox academy's angel hair and tyler the creator's igor and the want to create something with that powerful of a message. it also stems from the fact that lately i have been questioning my own preferences in terms of romanticism. i have established that i'm bi/pan but the anxieties i have about whether or not i'm adequate to be in a relationship with anyone, the fear of being hurt again by another person once more, or the thought of me being polyamorous or aromantic or asexual are ever present. that last part isn't anything bad, but it's just something that's been eating away at my thinking space.
i originally intended to release a visual album in tandem with the musical album because it's something i always wanted to do after beyonce's lemonade and current joys' a different age did such a phenomenal job (combining film and music) and i thought adding a visual representation to the message i'm trying to convey through the album would be a great way to do so. however, i have already accomplished that with projects such as impending doom and love everyone, hence i scrapped the idea.